Gotta say, I'm feeling a touch emo.
My latest artwork, which was created as a gift for the CEO of deviantart rejected my awesome present. I'm not the obsessive type, and no you're wrong, i'm not a 'hater'.* And so, I will wipe this tear and focus on continuing my greater body of work. And yes, I woke up face down in a wet pillow.
I'm chalking that up to an emotional response (of some kind)

*i guess you'd have to be a ' playa' for that term to even mean much in the first place

but for a moment, i was able to reach out and touch his robe, and was healed..in a way.
then, he erased my offering from his front page..saylahvee n' kayserah.
the deviation is still up, at least..
for real, it really 100% serious was a gift to him, which is why i linked him to it out here. i guess i like my gifts a bit pointy with a serated edge, it makes a stronger bond flesh2spirit and leaves cool scars we can laugh about later, but to each his/her own.
the even more weird thing was how quickly the nice post and link to my gift for him was erased from his site. i mean, they got to it really FAST.
yet, so many nice deviants asking questions and stuff haven't been answered. or, they get one from someone else. i'm just sayin' :fellashrug:
you would think in a place where the artists thrive from knowing each other by way of deeply involved and real relationships, treatment might be more personable..you know, like if your fast to ERASE someone yourself on your own site..some itty bitty slightly abrasive person, shouldn't you be twice as fast to BUILD UP those seeking fluid exchange (pun slightly intended as an aftereffect) and gleefully fattening your pocket at the same time?
As stated, i'm off the subject and onto more welcoming projects, but want to repeat one thing.

"extremely quick to erase, slower than a bureaucrat with balls nailed down to BUILD" - the ultimate hipocrisy.
by all means, find the irony between us. serated edge out, i see it in many of you who claim to be givers and uplifters yet say it is I who for whatever reason don't or can't know you.
and in the meantime, what the fuck good does the image in itself do?

i'm going to go burn a couple books now, maybe a flag.

yes, i live in the southern U.S. - no that doesn't automatically mean crosses too.


be good do one another, and don't let anyone say your a drag on the scene cuz you can call bullshit like a contender. if you, like me, ocassionally do but don't go out of your way to and do your best to avoid..at least try to keep that sense of irony, and so include yourself in that to.
you're image might dim abit before the superficial/self conscious, but that's not necessarily a bad thing.

in the end, we all get shitpied..then redeemed
first, ya gotta learn sumthin'!

here's to being fed on and feasting from in a thriving ecosystem of ideas